Under The Weather

The weather's so unpredictable these days. It can be clear and sunny one moment and then start pouring the next. Needless to say me, Hub and the little kiddos have been taking turns falling sick. Now's my turn to look after the others. The worst is of course Niyaz. When he falls sick, we can expect to be cleaning up huge amounts of vomit. Have you ever been vommited on? Well its gross. Even if it's your own darling son. He's done it to me twice. Not the accidentally in your lap kind. The accidentally on your chest and the rest of you kind. Phew! The smell is really something. Especially when you happen to be wearing a pullover kind of shirt. Then the vomit covered shirt has to go over your face before you can take it off. Ewwww ... Do you guys know of any other way to take a shirt off?

Today, My Darling Hub is sick. I must say that he's one of the easiest people to take care of because there's not much taking care to be done. Just let him sleep all day and conduct periodic checks to make sure that he's still breathing and that's all. He's really happy when he gets a whole day of uninterrupted sleep.

It's really sunny today though. Even though nearly everyone is sick and we had to stay home it's nice to be spending time with my family. Just me and the two kiddos. We don't get that enough these days. Even on weekends I'm thinking about work and trying to finish work that I brought home. **Big Sigh** I really envy those people who can just quit and stay home to bring up their children. I really should do some financial planning so that I can take a year off when the kids start going to primary school. That would be really, really lovely.

ADDICTED

The two little kiddos are in DREAMLAND so here I am with a minute or two to spare. Just taken the happy little yellow pill because I've got an attack of the sneezies. You should take a look inside my medicine drawer. It can double up as a doctor's mini store anytime. Headache pills, body ache pills, fever, flu, pills for the runs, numerous multicoloured painkillers for all kinds of pains you can imagine - available in drowsy and non-drowsy versions. My personal preference is of course the drowsy kind, they put you in a happy place - in your bed for at least 8 hours straight! I even have pills left over from my pregnancies .. Obimin tablets, the packaging was so pretty that I didn't want to throw them away. But I am not about to talk about an addiction to medicine .. in fact I have an allergy to them. Zak can vouch for that. That's why I have so many leftovers in my drawer.

Today, I barely managed to get through work. I was totally sleepy because I missed my morning coffee. What else, busy, busy, busy. By the time I managed to get a cuppa it was 3 pm and my entire system was out of sync. You could say that I am addicted to coffee now. I'm a late developer where coffee is concerned. My baby girl is the culprit. I hardly drank coffee until I was pregnant with her. Of course before that I enjoyed hanging out at Coffee Bean with my friends and slurping their Ice Blendeds. I've since then switched to Starbucks by the way but that's another story. When I was pregnant with her I had this inexplicable craving for Caramel Frappuccino from Starbucks. I don't know why but everytime I see a Starbucks I must have it. Sometimes I would even go out of my way just so that I would SEE a Starbucks. So thus my coffee addiction began.

As if being groggy like a froggy wasn't enough, my only solace and comfort at work was not available! The server was down!! Oh my gawd .. I cannot access the INTERNET! How am I supposed to read other peoples' blogs?? My emails?? My online games?? Yahoo Auctions?? What if the seller posted a reply to my queries?? I kept on checking every 5 mins, yes every 5 mins I would click on the beloved blue icon but to no avail. I was ranting and raving. How could they do this to us? Why isn't the service provider doing SOMETHING about it? Why? Why? Well, found out later that it was a routine maintenence taking place. Silly people, can't they maintain it in the middle of the night when I'm NOT at work and have no use for the internet. Sheesh, these inconsiderate people! So that's my second addiction.

My third is reading people's blogs. I've found some really good ones that I keep going back to. Some of them I simply stumbled upon by chance. Some of them I go to because I am very LOYAL to my friends. There are a lot of great and funny writers out there. I don't even need to buy a book! Keep it up all you guys. What would I do without you .. hmm .. actually I think I would get more work done if I wasn't reading all those blogs! But I enjoy them so much!! So keep on writing guys! The world's a less boring and more honest place with you.

PRO-CAS-TI-NA-TION

I am very lazy. Why do things today when they can be done tomorrow. I love doing my assignments last minute. During my school days, my friends were the ones who panic when I have not finished an assignment that was due in a couple of hours. I can't understand it myself but I always seem to be able to function better when I'm forced to think. Before you get me wrong, I'm not one of those freaky people who thrive under pressure, I just need to be forced to use my brains sometimes.

An example of my procastinating nature - I keep meaning to update my blog but will always tell myself there's still the next day and the next and the next ... you get my drift. Until friends threaten never to visit my blog again because it's never updated.

Nowadays I hardly get a chance to even procastinate properly. The trouble is I don't have enough hours in one day to finish everything that I was supposed to do. Weird huh. I had so much time before and I don't have any time now. Half my time is taken up by legitimate work and the other half is spent pandering to the whims and fancies as well as all sorts of funny ideas that people up there have. 'Do this, no, no scratch that do it another way. What? You've done all the work for it? Doesn't matter, do it this way now! Why?? Because I SAY SO!!' No wonder I'm always so tired at the end of the day. And I would still have not finished half of what I was supposed to do. SIGH! What do I do? Come to work at 7 am and leave at 9?? I'm sure that even if I did that I would still find more things that have to be done.

So you see, all this rushing about is no good for me. My brain is constantly under pressure to work. It does not even have enough rest so don't talk about functioning properly!

That's why the weekends have become so precious to me. I do not go to work on Saturdays unless it is mandatory and it has been made clear that I have to be present. I'm a simple person, I like things to be stated clearly. Perhaps it is because I have no initiative or motivation to turn up otherwise. Or maybe it's just because I'm not out to CARRY ***s. So I'm quite upset with the things that have been said lately and the attempt of some people to rationalise them. Don't know if I'm making sense here. Don't want to say too much or it will definitely be used against me. I just want to make the point that I like things CLEAR and TRANSPARENT. If you want me to be there JUST SAY SO!! Don't pretend to be giving me an OPTION when there isn't actually one. Humphh!

I seem to be in a complaining mood today. I am also sick and tired of work-related people calling outside work hours. I give you my phone number not so that you can call me at all times of the day and night. I may still be asleep at 7 am. I am with my family at 8.30 pm and I would still be with my family at 9.30 pm. I do not call you as and when I please to tell you things that could very well be talked about at a reasonable time. I do not call you just to ask you inane questions that you could have probably answered yourself if you had any common sense, which you probably do not possess. I gave you my number for your convenience in case there are any URGENT matters that need my attention for example if you were dying at 10 pm then I would excuse your call. I would even wish you all the best, that's how understanding I am. I am SICK OF YOU!! But what can I do, I have to be on my best behaviour no matter what. What a liar I am. I don't even have the guts to say I'll call them back at a more suitable time. Bah! What's the use of complaining about things that I have no power to change.

After watching Desperate Housewives today, Bree's prayer stuck in my mind ... Grant me the serenity to accept things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Well, I suppose we don't have to look at it as a prayer but as words of wisdom or something because there are just so many things in life that are beyond our ability to change. Either we can sit and gripe about it and get all worked up and unhappy (and get more grey hairs) or we can just get on with our lives. For me, I will gripe about it first (what's another grey hair or two) and then I'll get on with it ... heh heh, what to do I AM WOMAN after all.